Let's Start Over

So it's been a long time since I updated this. But, seeing as I haven't told anyone about this then it doesn't really matter, does it?

Today is Day One of the 'real' drugs for round two of IVF. (Steroid pills, birth control and baby aspirin don't count) The doctor has upped the dosages in hopes that we'll get more eggs, which means more embryos, which means more testing, which means the higher possibility for babies. We don't really talk about round one of IVF because we didn't have the outcome that we were hoping for - and of course we were devastated.

I have a good feeling about this time around. Like I tell Kyle on an almost daily basis, I'm hopeful but I'm not getting my hopes up. Yesterday we went out to breakfast for my dad's birthday. Being the odd family that we are we went to the Miami County municipal airport (don't ask) and I had this terribly odd feeling that I would be taking my kiddos there soon to watch the airplanes take off and land.

Going through this process also reminds me, about 6 years ago, when I cursed Kyle with triplet girls. Little did I know that I was actually cursing myself - or that it could be so close to a reality. One afternoon while we were talking to our social worker (Kate is awesome! She helped us through everything with Madelyn) we said that we would implant every normal embryo we have - if we have any - this time around.

So, here we go for another roller coaster ride! Stay tuned.